flaws : oringinally posted 7/21/07

these string that hold me together slowly are unwinding
each fatal flaw is flowing like water off a cliff
I've dived head first into an unknown cry a war song
unraveling every misconception and proving my points
i have fallen apart and been put back together the wrong way
not who i was not who i am just being lost in translation

My Haunting ending: oringally posted 7/10/07

The loneliness inside of me grows as each fortification crumbles,
Holding no peace for my wretched heart,
Tears slide down my cheeks as a sign that tomorrow will not come,
The invisible blade is held above my bosom ready to strike,
A wretched soul tattered with no hopes of relief from its internal hemorrhaging
Releasing this eternal blade forever reliving me of heartache and sorrows, to just live
One last sorrowful smile i will grace you with and haunt you till life's end

Moon Lite Dancer : originally posted 11/25/06

~Moon lite Dancer~
moving with sounds no one can hear
sweet melodies rocking my body
twirling in utter joy of life

soft pastels painting my soul
covering a canvas as i move
smiling to the heaven's stars

moonlight softening my path
smooth movements overlapping
moving passing effortlessly

enjoying being lost in the sensation
missing the freedom of flight
the moments of dancing

Lost to the white: Originally posted 11/22/06

~Lost to the White~
so confused by this life
living is jest not that important anymore
walking as blank as a brand new canvas
someone paint my life into being
create colors in this black and white sketch
bring life excitement and pleasure
not pain and hate
someone bring me life
hold me tight as i forget to breath
blank as a white canvas in a white room
lost to the implications of sterility
jaded beyond all repair
so confused is my soul
black bleeding white
white bleeding black
battling within but never telling
so confused beyond any return
lost to the sterility of hopelessness

unknown

Yes no maybe.

No yes maybe

Maybe

Lost in this broken cycle 

Consumed in my own fears

Maybe 

No yea maybe

Yes no maybe 

Shared my thoughts 

And give back the same broken cycle

Yes 

No

Maybe

~Future in the Stars~ originally written 11-22-06

~Future in the Stars~
in the stars lays a future
untested like the deep sea
 untamed like the lion
timid as the bird

my destiny lays before me
planned within uncharted waters
laying dormant till I'm called
waiting for the stars to sing

in the stars lays a future
not dark or light in nature
hidden beneath the currents
I'm charted to sail this path unknown

Crystal Balls, Tarot Cards and Psychics

find me a crystal ball to tell me what to do
tarot cards to read me my past and present
and a psychic to reveal to me your thoughts
discover how I feel by looking in my eyes
I'm exposed down to my core
despite it all you are only partly mine
in my heart I know there is something
no crystal ball or tarot cards can change that
if only you saw it as I do
felt it in the ways I have
needing as I do

Going mad

Driving myself mad with trying for something
That something I know I can't have
Putting myself at your mercy

Heaven forbid you make your own choices
So that I can have closure or hope
This delusion is getting harder

It's harder to see and hear and feel when your there
Signals are lost in translation
This grey zones broken