in the darkness your name plays across my lips
a reminder that my soul has not give up
though my mind tries and my heart breaks
with each passing tick of the clock the burns are deeper
and your careless words leave me reeling
to find where solid ground should be
I want to forget but never regret
to have my way but not be lost
to be seen as everything
but that is not where I stand
I stand alone on a path parrale to yours
that like the tide you rush at me only to leave me alone
stranded sinking in the quicksand of my emotions
caught in the churning of every new thought
of you, of the if's, of a non-existent future
this storm has raged too long and I have tried to let go
but instead I am stuck drowning indefinitely
a lost caught to the happy and sane
mourning a lost already a decade old
as the wounds that never healed are repeated
scratched raw by words you do not care you said
I am searching for the footing you tell me to have
to be firm and strong, yet you pull the wolrd out from
underneath me with the slightest phrases
contradiction after contradiction as you push me away
but ask why I have left for so long
in the wake of your indifference
I wish to forget but not regret
to be seen for what I am and could offer
to be your everything
but that is not to be for I am your nothing
a collision with a paralle line
never meant to be
