one day in the mirror happiness will stare back at me
the reflection that has barely ever been stood before me
radiating everything I have wished upon these thousand stars
till then I stare into a blank void lost in my own woes and errors
trying to fight
to breath
to be
yet falling asunder
dying of my own reluctance
fading into the blackness that has consumed me
with near a speck of brightness to console me
one day my outer calm will break and truth will set me free
when my weakness' will peel away
and my words will be let free
wherefore wishes will be obsolete
and needs left behind
fading
as the light engulfs me
one day I will see myself as others
and find in me a deeper self
till then I stare down the abyss
waiting for to be shown the way
to bring back the lights behind my eye that have faded
and smile once again with renewed joy
