Night Sky

staring into the night sky I feel consumed
every light-year speeds past me
at atomic levels my body vibrates
holding me together
as I fight to fall apart
the gravitational forces
pressing me to earth
crushing everything, yet nothing
as I am consumed in the stars
wishing to see their birth
in the great explosion
and their death as they
collapse in on themselves
as I do, staring up
into the inky sky
I see the unexplored and
terrifying unknowns
darker and lighter than
even we can imagine
it is mind
boggling
consuming
in
every
way

They say I am waiting for you- 6/17/15

No one holding my heart hostage
except this iron cage I have created
surrounded by a fortress in disrepair
pocked with despair and tears

They all say I am waiting for you
but reality is that I rather be alone
safer then falling down the rabbits hole
to not be caught and crumble again

An iron cage within a broken castle
the anti-fairytale ending
no foreseeable knight
or fairy godmother in my future

Just tears and loneliness
that consume the small smiles
and has faded the light behind my eyes

They say I am waiting for you
but its just easier to be
alone, then broken and alone.