If I say it what will you tell me?

I know I'm hard to deal with
You have the patience of a saint
My issues out weigh my sanity
these flaws crisscross my skin
like tattoos marking me badly

I can't take the what ifs anymore
I want to love you but I am terrified
Gave everything one too many times
the burn marks scared my heart hard

I know the uncertainty of it all
Your logic filling in the blanks
counting the ways we will break
falling is impossibly possible

I know I'm hard to deal with
Your everything I need forever
I'm fighting the need to tell you
for your heart is hidden to me
 Just needing your arms around me